Writing Sample

To try and put a piece of myself down on paper without being an asshole or coming off as blunt or harsh is impossible. Writings and expressions of myself don't reflect who I am in the present, but who I want to be in the future. Ironically, I get from present to future by focusing on the past, by focusing on fear of honest criticism and of failure to meet my own or others' expectations. If I succeed in expressing myself 'correctly', then I hang another axe on my wall, another expectation to meet and exceed. In the arts there is no win condition, there is only pain, failure and suffering until death. It's my greatest fear to pass this on to my son. He should experience and love life for the beauty and the joy that it can be rather than the miserable cold place that it tends toward.